Ok…yes…I am officially a slack blogger.  But I’ll just pretend that I haven’t been out of the loop for months and share a couple of things that have been on my mind this week.  So here we go…

Monday, Travis and I found out that we will be having a baby boy!!!  I am so incredibly excited that I can’t begin to describe it!  Over the last few days everything has begun to feel about a thousand times more real.  I loved the little one growing inside of me before, but after the latest ultrasound it has suddenly become so much more than it was.  It is like the reality of being a parent is actually here.  I don’t just feel like a pregnant woman, I feel like a mother.  I don’t really know how to pinpoint what the difference is, but somehow it feels massively and amazingly different.  

It got me to thinking about why my mentality changed so quickly.  I came to this conclusion:  I needed the confirmation that everything looked just fine.  You see, I can be a bit of a worrier–saying ‘a bit’ is putting it mildly–and I have been quite tentative through the first half of this pregnancy.  It took us quite a while to get to this point, and I have been worried, off and on, something would be amiss.  With the tendency to get worried, I have to constantly be aware of why I worry, and take steps to keep it far away.  I know the only way to do that is to trust the one who is always faithful.  The one who has provided Travis and I with the blessing of the incredible little man we already love so much.  And in trying to trust Him more, I have to say that this pregnancy has done wonders for my prayer life.  It has really shown me my lack of control, and the necessity to have faith in Him.  Now I am just so thankful that I can breathe and feel truly at peace–trusting in my Father to take care of everything.  “You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.”   Isaiah 26:3

Our little boy!

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